"Remain in me, and i will remain in you. no branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me." 15:4
"If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples." 15:7-8 of the Gospel of John
It was very regretful during several acounts of disputing with some G-d haters. They flipped their middle fingers towards me, they spurred malicious words at me, they yelled and showed and approached me aggressively. I thought I have the rights to defend myself. I thought I have the rights to brush them off by telling them that they were criminals by doing so. I thought I should not be cowed but be bold to fight against their attacks.
when I read these scriptures, I felt that my actions did not show sufficient mercy and compassion to them but anger and self-righteousness. .although I did not condemn them, but my actions spoke stronger than that Forgive me Father. I must remain in you and in the Lord Christ Jesus. Fence off them will not bring any of them back to you but pronounce your justice to them. It is part of my work to help them to know you more, not to hate you more by my defending actions. I thought that it is a battle field. but I forgot that it is a harvest field as well. in any battlefield, there always gave ugly and devastating results. Forgive me, as I forgot to preserve the field while I was singled out there. Give me more love and patience and endurance, so I can tolerate with all these evils. so your love in me will bring them to repentance.
Yes, as you say, If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. You do nt belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. This is why the world hates you. (15 18 , 19b of Gospel of John)
Please help me to live a life to praise you, to bring praise back to you, to testify your greatness and love kindness and your compassion to all sinners. Please strengthen me with your power and wisdom to stand up for you with mercy and integrity. May you be forever praised and glorified. Amen forever.
Called to serve, Called to stand, called to testify the Truth.